Time to regain focus!
I have been MIA over the last few months as I have been focusing on redirecting my personal life and getting it back on track. I’ve taken the time to focus on myself and making some necessary changes to my mindset and goals. I realized I had become somebody I didn’t even recognize anymore. Somebody bitter, somebody lacking confidence, and somebody spending too much time worrying what others were doing. I was so far off track that I was at the point I was willing to give up all the goals I had worked so hard to achieve. It is hard to recognize these changes in yourself sometimes as they happen so gradually until sometimes you have lost total control. It is going to take some time to fully pull mentally back to what it was but this is my number one goal for 2018.
I recognized these changes earlier in the year, which was a big part of my motivation for participating in my first COC. To drive back my fighting spirit, the unstoppable personality I had throughout my life. It helped but did not get me where I needed to be, and as soon as the summer fatigue set in I lost sight of even my training focus. By the end of the summer, I realized just how important it was for me to refocus my attitude to be able to make the changes fully needed.
I have refound my focus and accepted the things that I need to continue to work on to get back to where I want to be. Last week I received my high blue belt; which is my first belt promotion since the tournament. Receiving the belt was unexpected but a reminder that I was on the right path of getting back on track. I should have received this earlier, but I let myself lose my focus and drive over the summer. Since it has gotten colder outside, it helps me feel better and have more energy so this is my time to regain the most focus. While I am still learning how to cope and work with my MS symptoms, the important part is going to be maintaining it through all seasons and not just winter months.
My 2018 goals will be to focus on constant self-improvement throughout all aspects of my life. In not only my career and my training, but also just being the best person possible. Some commitments I have already made for 2018 is my next Challenge of the Champions in June and making the ride for Bike MS in September. Consistency is going to be the key to success in achieving my goals.